RikuBi

what was i thinking when i did follow you around like a fool .. what foolish action from me to do ,, i did have everything i needed .. but why did i .. am i really that stupid ,, so much to be regrat of ,, so may momment i want to erase it for my busy mind , i been so long since i had a peaceful night sleep .. what did i do ..??? what did i gain but pain and disrespect .. such a foolish life i did live back then ,, and still am paying the price for my Stupidity what do i deserve ,, whom i shall cry at their shoulder .. nothing and no one .. being alone is what i really want and what i really afraid of ... so stupid i am ..

When you start to wondering about many matters that concern you u start to build a whole new world of endless thought, well that happen to me , to many things I've been thinking of lately and to be honest it start to exhaust  me .. I keep asking myself why do I bother myself in thinking too much and the answers is never been told to me..  I do say I should stop thinking but I can't It's keeps and keeps going on my mind without my control, Am sick of it , I just want some answers to relief my busy mind ,, Two days ago I 've been told some of the answers that relate to "k" Am happy ,, cuz "k"  always surprise me with the honest  answers

hi .. well here i am writing , well it's the only way i can say what i feel .. so many things in my mind , so many things i want , so many if 's i regret not to say it really bothering me how i can be so naive in doing something nt for my own good. as much i want somthing as much they made me hate it .. smtime i wonder what did i do to deserve such a attitude "useless"  i hear it alot ,, and am starting to believe it .. really so many things i really really want to have , to go , to see and to own and the only word i can say " tomorrow" till then see ya